by Allyson Hager
I never thought I would get this far
All of my thoughts are sad and dark
The world looks bleak and I’m too meek
To see the brighter side of things
It’s all too tough, like I’m not enough, and I know I’m not enough
Crying, and shaking, like my heart breaking in pieces
I can barely put them together, but I’m better
I’ll tell them I’m better
Have you ever felt like there was no turning back?
When the world turns black?
Like no one has your back.
There’s a pit and it’s empty. Nothing to fill it but lies, and an oversupply of worthless alibi’s
I am a pen with no paper
A question with no answer, but I’m better
I’ll pray that I’m better
Sadly, I don’t remember how to feel at all
The mask I wear is becoming too small
I bleed, I break, I fall apart
Like glass, I’m left in fragments and shards
But I try to get better, to put me back together
I really do try, but the best I do is cry, and why don’t tears fix our past goodbyes?
Was that a lie?
It’s as if my life doesn’t matter
An envelope with no letter
Like whoever said together is forever, or to continue your endeavor despite all your failures, but whatever, I’m better
For now, I’ll say I’m better